Cloud9

Even though I know expectations ruin a person's peace of mind, I expect. I expect gifts, care, love and most importantly time. And there are times I have a good control over my mind when I don't really care. That usually happens when I'm busy with work or studying. And I kind of like it. Something to focus on. Care free mind.

It was such a time when you came. I was not thinking about you. I was on my study bubble with music encased inside when you showed up on my doorstep. I was not expecting you. Probably that's why I was on cloud nine. I still am. My heart felt full. But I felt light. I had autumn and spring flowers, leaves and bees buzzing on my mind.

So it's good when you don't expect anything. Because then when you suddenly get something, you can be high on happiness.

Farewell 2015!

2015!

I saw numerous negative memes about this year. And somehow I can relate to that!

One accident, couple of sprains, a fracture and food poisoning : My health graph literally when down like a torn parachute.

Management changed, salary crunch, clubbed boss, empty pockets : Career didn't go as planned.

Death threats, verbal abuses, depression, drained tear ducts, heartbreaks, good-byes : Family and relationships were a fiasco.

But when I delved around my memories and albums, I found really good incidents too :)

Starting with the night outs for Kailash Kher's concert at Nishagandhi festival, thattu dosas, milk Sarbat, car rides to morning beach rides with friends, Kanthari visits, Dream Camp planning, sleepovers, trekking, Meenmutty & Kannur trip and dream camps.

It was a year of firsts - Playing Pool, Stay at a five star hotel, Cocktail party, Heritage walks, Photo walk, met my favourite playback singer, did pottery, risked my career and loved working for the first time in my life. 

I actually did stuff without asking anyone's opinion... just listening to my heart and mind - Applied for PG, rekindled my art and craft hobbies, bought books and well..stuff :D

December was pretty bad for me. Had to cancel two trips I longed for - Bombay and Punjab. I was really broke. Got a rejection mail for the first time after a job interview. Wanted to be somewhere else today (31st December) at least this year unlike the last 25 years! 

But yeah, had a girl's trip to EKM, had fun times with Amma and friends, attended a good concert and ended a broken friendship :)

Looking forward to a fresh start and hoping 2016 would be kind to me :)

Happy New Year!

Scribbled Note 1.0

He just meant to send a picture of the chocolate on his table. But I had my eyes on the rest of the contents. You can fairly understand about a person by the way he keeps his table. His was organized in a particular order. The contents had a particular symmetry. And, being a lover of symmetry,  I fell in love with him.

We both take the same medicine. All I needed was the symbol from the bottle cap. So, we both will have a single common entity for our entire lifetime. A small dot, taken 365 times a year until we die.

An Archie's carry pack. The familiar multicolored lines peeked at me.

The more I looked, more common items waved at me. A floss, a plastic box and an ink bottle. The smell he has must come from the perfume. Oh! A black box. But mine has jewellery, unlike his paper bits.

The foreign eraser I'm familiar with, but never had the privilege to own one. My favorite soap that I avoid because of its price. The two letters to which he has a great attachment.

This is the closest I have been with his personal space. Maybe I won't see any further from this level. . .

A Day With The Kids

Intro : Wrote this 8 months before. ummm yeah forgot to post it :P :D

It’s been two month since I joined MAD and today, for the first time, I met the kids. I was in the class with Swathy to arrange the desks and benches for the ECS donor’s event when the kids started coming. They screamed ‘Chechi…’ seeing Swathy and came running and hugged her :) I understood how happy they were to see her.
After they all settled down, Swathy introduced me to the kids. At first I kind of felt awkward as I didn't know what to say and the kids were also shy. They just gave short glances and bowed their head, smiled secretly and looked at each other. But then from here and there I started getting questions like ‘What is your name?’, ‘What are you doing?’, ‘Where is your place?’ etc. After that initial awkwardness I chatted with them as if we knew each other for a long time. They asked about my hobbies, favorite author, my college and what all. It was like viva-shooting questions from all around me. But only difference was this is one viva I really enjoyed :D. One of the girls sang a song for me and it was beautiful. She had a mesmerizing voice.
We conducted a painting competition and it was fun. Some were really interested in drawing and some were more interested in making building with the crayons and crayon boxes ;). Some were happy to pose for pictures and some was terribly shy to face the camera :p. I was scared whether they would get bored after a while. But seeing their happy faces I knew we all made their day brighter. As they bid goodbye and went, a small part of me was feeling blank…wanting to spend more time with them…and must say I felt jealous of the teaching volunteers for getting to teach these wonderful kids. But then hats off for making a difference in their lives :) The happiness I got from spending two hours with them was loads more than getting a new dress or b’day surprise or hanging out with friends.

The only sad part being a FOM intern is I don’t get to interact with the kids always. And today, I must say, it was bliss.